“I’ve learned to embrace my complexities. I’m humble, yet bold. I’m sociable, yet introverted. I’m quiet, yet ambitious”
I decided to create this blog to record my thoughts, ideas etc. In January I decided to purchase a journal to write down my inner most thoughts, feelings, worries etc. I found this extremely therapeutic and thought it would be good to blog this for other people to see. Obviously I will not be sharing my deepest thoughts…as we have to keep somethings private! But the information I will share on here will hopefully inspire others! I’m on a journey of self-development and discovery and I’m excited for the future!
I thought long and hard about a blog name and came up with these two words which on the face of it seem quite opposite but I felt reflected my personality perfectly. “Quietly ambitious”. This phrase sums me up. You see, I’ve always been a quiet person. Some would say shy…I would say selectively confident. And in that I mean…I never felt the need to be overly talkative or the centre of attention but I was still self-assured and would share my opinions if necessary. However, as I got older…I noticed a part of me that I hadn’t seen before…I was ambitious. I realised that I had a lot more potential…and I started believing in myself more!
I believe this realisation came about during Sixth Form. I opted to take Psychology, Sociology and English Language and Literature. I wasn’t an A* student and to be honest I didn’t really care much for education back then. However, one night I sat down in my room and started to do my English homework. My usual approach was to get it done as soon as possible so I could go back to updating my Facebook status and messaging my friends. However, this evening was different. As I sat on my bed with my old Dell laptop that would overheat literally minutes after being switched on, I began to complete my homework. I said to myself…let me actually put some effort into this. So I sat there for hours…I got frustrated, stressed and fed up. I was actually using my brain for once and I tell ya it was a painful experience..ha! Anyways after a few grueling hours hunched over my laptop I produced a piece of work…which even I was impressed with. I couldn’t believe I wrote it.
The next day I took it to school and handed it in…and that was that. A few days later our English teacher gave us back our work. Apart from mine. The teacher had kept my work to read it out to the class. Not as a shaming exercise but as an example of excellent work. In that moment of slight embarrassment as my classmates gawped at me, the teacher read out my work. I couldn’t believe it! Me? Exemplar work? Never! The teacher had given me an A. Which was one of the highest grades I had ever received. Although it was a small success I still felt a sense of achievement. It gave me confidence.
So there you have it, right in a Sixth form classroom my ambitious nature was born. However, my ambition only continued to grow from continuous support from my loved ones. Without that I would still be the same person I was back then. But now I’m pleased to say almost 6 years later! I have achieved a lot, including 2 degrees, the awarding of an academic scholarship, opportunities to work on research projects at the Department of Health and most recently an academic tutor.
Now I don’t share my story to gloat about my achievements…because I’m nowhere near where I want to be. But simply take my story as encouragement and inspiration. That once you make the decision to work hard it will pay off!
Each and every one of us has a special gift to give to this world. The complexities of our personalities make every human being unique. I’ve learned to embrace my complexities. I’m humble, yet bold. I’m sociable, yet introverted. I’m quiet, yet ambitious. Society may say that this isn’t possible. But I say it is.
So for anyone that is more inclined to introversion…it’s OK. You can be successful just the way you are, whether that is in business, academia, your career or personal life. You just need to find your passion and let that shine through!
So again welcome to my blog. I hope you’re inspired by the content.